Nangyari na ba sa iyong akala mo ginagawa mo ang kalooban ng Diyos dahil nakakatulong ka pero sa totoo ginagawa mo lang pala ang pagtulong dahil nakakataas ng ego; dahil alam mo na ikaw lang ang makakagawa nun at di kaya ng iba; dahil sa iyo sila lumapit; dahil nasa iyo ang sagot?
There are times when we take on a certain task thinking that we do so because we want to help; we do so because we want to give our time and talent; we do so because we think we have in us the solution. Only to realize that what motivated the decision was the privilege, the esteem, the honor, the high regard, the good feeling of being able to help, the air of holiness that comes from an act of sacrifice, that comes with the task. It is still the self that rules.
One can easily be misled because of the nature and fruits of the task, but solitude and silence will always reveal the true face of taking on the task, the face not of those one wants to help but in truth the face of the self. What seems to be service and sacrifice is still self-serving job. An honest to goodness self-examination in the atmosphere of silence and prayer, is in order. A trusted spiritual director can always validate the hidden fact.
Beware!
